..."Tell it slant'... ~Emily Dickinson
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."~Anais Nin
Now you know. The next time you go into the basement wear a helmet. ~Eve
"In extremity, states of mind become objective, metaphors tend to actualize, the word becomes flesh.(1977,205) -Terence Des Pres, 'The Survivor'
“I decided to go in search of the shaking woman.” Siri Hustvedt
A hundred times a day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving. ~Albert Einstein
As Christians and Jews, following the example of the faith of Abraham, we are called to be a blessing to the world. (cf. Gen. 12:2ff). This is the common task awaiting us. It is therefore necessary for us Christians and Jews, to be first a blessing to one another. (L'Osservatore Romano, Aug. 17, 1993) ~John Paul II
"...there is need for acknowledgment of the common roots linking Christianity and the Jewish people, who are called by God to a covenant which remains irrevocable (cf. Rom.11:29) and has attained definitive fullness in Jesus Christ." ~John Paul II
...a consistent contempt for Nazism(condemning it as early as 1930...as 'demonic' and 'wedded to Satan') and Communism as virulent atheism...he referred to them as "Gog and Magog"... ~on Claudel

Today, it seems, most were born ‘left-handed.’ Every one I see walking is ‘hinged at the hips’, in-sync’ and glued to metallic boxes. ~Chelé
"A true opium of the people is a belief in nothingness after death - the huge[illusory] solace of thinking that for our betrayals, greed, cowardice, murders we are not going to be judged." - Czeslaw Milosz
*A writer is dear and necessary for us only in the measure of which he reveals to us the inner workings of his very soul*. Tolstoy
I will not let thee go except thou be blessed. Now wouldn’t it be a magnificent world if we all lived that way with each other or even with ourselves?
"I, Sister Faustina, by the order of God, have visited the abysses of hell so that I might tell souls about it and testify to its existence...But I noticed one thing: that most of the souls there are those who disbelieved that there is a hell." -Saint Faustina

Do you hear what I hear? A child, a child crying in the night.

"Every time you dance, what you do must be sprayed with your blood. ~Rudolf Nureyev
Why would someone who looked God in the face ever suppose that there could be something better? ~Matthew Likona

We cannot know what we would do in order to survive unless we are tested. For those of us tested to the extremes the answer is succinct: anything

…”The Stoics throned Fate, the Epicureans Chance, while the Skeptics left a vacant space where the gods had been –[nihilism]—but all agreed in the confession of despair;...and...Oriental schemes of thought contributed a share to the deepening gloom..." ~Gwatkin

"...notes to the committee...why do you invite cows to analyze the milk?" -Peter de Vries

"I run because it gives Him pleasure." ~Eric, Chariots of Fire

“God’s truth is life,” as Patrick Kavanagh says, “even the grotesque shapes of its foulest fire.” What is the difference between a cry of pain that is also a cry of praise and a cry of pain that is merely an articulation of despair? Faith? The cry of a believer, even if it is a cry against God, moves toward God, has its meaning in God, as in the cries of Job. ~Christian Wiman

"Insanity is relative. It depends on who has who locked in what cage." - Ray Bradbury

As for what concerns our relations with our fellow men, the anguish in our neighbor's soul must break all precept. All that we do is an end in itself, because God is Love. ~Edith Stein, St. Benedicta of the Cross.

“Lastly, and most of all. Who turns his back upon the fallen and disfigured of his kind; abandons them as vile…; does wrong to Heaven and man, to time and to eternity. And you have done that wrong!” ~Dickens, The Chimes, 1844

Dieu me pardonnera. C'est son métier . ~Heinrich Heine.

Remember the 'toe-pick' and you won't get swallowed by the whale or eaten by the polar bear.

Someone else needs to become the bad example in our group
But you wear shame so well ~James Goldman, Eve [Or, tired of being the scapegoat yet? ~Sue]

There is a point where the unfortunate and the infamous unite and are confounded in a single word, miserable; whose fault is this? And then should not the charity be all the more profound, in proportion as the fall is great? -[Jesus Christ said so.] -- Br. Humbert Kilanowski, O.P.

The lamps are going out all over Europe; we shall not see them lit again in our lifetime. -Sir Edward Grey

We are still fighting to use the tools we have to grapple with the unknown.

“We are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not.” ~Joan Didion"

When I fall into the abyss, I go straight into it, head down and heels up, and I'm even pleased that I'm falling in just such a humiliating position, and for me I find it beautiful. And so in that very shame I suddenly begin a hymn.
—Fyodor Dostoevsky

" ...wie geht es zu, daß ich alles so anders sehe ...?"

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”― Maya Angelou

'Have you ever noticed that the meanest, most misogynist, and dangerous people tend to be activists who claim to be for freedom and love?'

"For others of us, the most loving thing we can do for our abusers is to keep them from having opportunity to abuse ever again." (Dawn Eden) My Peace I Give You, Ch. 1)

No child is ever responsible for abuse perpetrated on them by ANYONE. I understand that others may not "get it" and that's fine. Blaming the victim is never right or just under any circumstances.

Stay In Touch -Have I not proven to you that I Am in the saving sinners business? -Jesus


HOPE: Hold on to the great truths of the Faith...Own your challenging affliction...Persevere...Expect God's providence and intervention... ~Johnette Benkovich, Woman of Grace
O my Jesus, forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell, lead all souls to heaven, help those especially in need of thy mercy. - OL of Fatima
Prescription #1: Give God the greatest possible glory and honor Him with your whole soul. If you have a sin on your conscience, remove it as soon as possible by means of a good Confession. ~St. John Bosco
Prescription #2: In thankful tenderness offer Reparation for the horrible mockery and blasphemies constantly uttered against the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob; against the Blessed Virgin Mary; the saints and angels; His Church; His priests and religious; His children; and His loving Heart by reciting the Golden Arrow which delightfully wounds Him:
'May the most holy, most sacred, most adorable and ineffable Name of God be forever praised, blessed, loved, and honored by all the creatures of God in heaven, on earth and in the hells through the Sacred Heart of Jesus in the most Blessed Sacrament of the altar. Amen.
Prescription #3: So, let us go out to Him outside the camp, bearing His reproach. ~Heb.13:13
Prescription #4: "Do whatever He tells you." ~John 2:5
Prescription #5: Sometimes when I am in such a state of spiritual dryness that not a single good thought occurs to me, I say very slowly the "Our Father" or the "Hail Mary"and these prayers suffice to take me out of myself. ~St. Therese of Lisieux
Prescription #6: Have confidence in God's Love, Justice, and Mercy: ...as for me, O my God, in my very confidence lies all my HOPE. For Thou, O Lord, singularly has settled me in hope." -St. Claude de la Colombiere SJ

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Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Dark Speech upon the Harp: Love of neighbor

Dark Speech upon the Harp: Love of neighbor
Excerpt:
It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities, it is with the awe and the circumspection proper to them, that we should conduct all our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilization -- these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit -- immortal horrors or everlasting splendors. This does not mean that we are to be perpetually solemn. We must play. But our merriment must be of that kind (and it is, in fact, the merriest kind) which exists between people who have, from the outset, taken each other seriously -- no flippancy, no superiority, no presumption. And our charity must be a real and costly love, with deep feeling for the sins in spite of which we love the sinner -- no mere tolerance or indulgence which parodies love as flippancy parodies merriment. Next to the Blessed Sacrament itself, your neighbor is the holiest object presented to your senses. If he is your Christian neighbor, he is holy in almost the same way, for in him also Christ vere latitat -- the glorifier and the glorified, Glory Himself, is truly hidden.

~ C. S. Lewis, from The Joyful Christian : 127 Readings (Touchstone, 1996), pp 197-8
Razglednica”: Postcard 4
his final poem, written October 31, 1944 near Szentkirályszabadja, Hungary
I toppled beside him — his body already taut,
tight as a string just before it snaps,
shot in the back of the head.
"This is how you’ll end too; just lie quietly here,"
I whispered to myself, patience blossoming from dread.
"Der springt noch auf," the voice above me jeered;
I could only dimly hear
through the congealing blood slowly sealing my ear.

-Hypertexts: Miklós Radnóti, translated by Michael R. Burch
Translator's notes:
"Der springt noch auf" means something like "That one is still twitching."
The poem was written on October 31 1944  and on Nov 6th the poet was shot and tossed into a collective grave. 

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Joan



Joan of Arcadia
Joan: Let’s see a miracle.
God: How about that?
Joan: It’s a tree.
God: Let’s see you make one.
* There is no failure so great that a Christian cannot rise from it; there is no defeat so final that he cannot convert it into victory. *Helen C. White

"My thoughts do not aim for your assent - just place them alongside your own reflections for a while." - Robert Nozick

Friday, October 26, 2012

Maria Gaetana Agnesi

Maria Gaetana Agnesi
Excerpt:
Maria Gaetana Agnesi is best known from the curve called the "Witch of Agnesi" (see illustration from her text Analytical Institutions). Agnesi wrote the equation of this curve in the form y = a*sqrt(a*x-x*x)/x because she considered the x-axis to be the vertical axis and the y-axis to be the horizontal axis [Kennedy]. Reference frames today use x horizontal and y vertical, so the modern form of the curve is given by the Cartesian equation yx2=a2(a-y) or y = a3/(x2 + a2). It is a versed sine curve, originally studied by Fermat. "It was called a versiera, a word derived from the Latin vertere, meaning 'to turn', but it was also an abbreviation for the Italian word avversiera, meaning 'the wife of the devil'" [Osen, 45]. However, when Maria's text was translated into English the word versiera was confused with "witch", and the curve came to be known as the witch of Agnesi.
After the success of her book, Maria was elected to the Bologna Academy of Sciences. The university sent her a diploma and her name was added to the faculty. However, there is a debate over whether or not Maria accepted this appointment since by this time she had devoted herself to her work with charity. It seems that her father was the inspiration for her interest in mathematics. When he died in 1752, Maria gave up any further work in mathematics. "When, in 1762, the University of Turin asked her for her opinion of the young Lagrange's recent articles on the calculus of variations, her response was that she was no longer concerned with such interests" [Osen, 47].
Maria was a very religious woman. She devoted the rest of her life to the poor and homeless sick people, especially women. When the Pio Instituto Trivulzo, a home for the ill and infirm, was opened, Maria was given an appointment as the director of the institute. She took care of ill and dying women until her own death.
It seems to me that even though she was a genius, mathematics was only a temporary hobby of hers. It may be that she was only dealing with mathematics to please her father who apparently was expecting his prodigy child to be involved in mathematics. Of course, this is only a personal observation. However, her behavior implies that she was not dedicated to mathematics which I think explains why she gave up mathematics altogether as soon as her father died. She was a very shy and decent person. She was not ambitious to become a well-known mathematician. Her most famous work, Analytical Institutions, was intended to be a textbook for her brothers. Her intelligence and talent made it possible to integrate all the state of the art knowledge about calculus in a very clear way. Religious life and helping the needy seem to have interested her more than mathematics.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Bl. Pope John Paul II – Pray For Us | Defend Us In Battle

Bl. Pope John Paul II – Pray For Us | Defend Us In Battle
Excerpt:   [I owe very much to this Pope.]
Let us pray for him, as he prays for us… and “Be Not Afraid.”
Here is a short bio from Catholic.org:
Karol J. Wojtyla, known as John Paul II since his October 1978 election to the papacy, was born in Wadowice, a small city 50 kilometres from Cracow, on May 18, 1920. He was the second of two sons born to Karol Wojtyla and Emilia Kaczorowska. His mother died in 1929. His eldest brother Edmund, a doctor, died in 1932 and his father, a non-commissioned army officer died in 1941.
He made his First Holy Communion at age 9 and was confirmed at 18. Upon graduation from Marcin Wadowita high school in Wadowice, he enrolled in Cracow’s Jagiellonian University in 1938 and in a school for drama.
The Nazi occupation forces closed the university in 1939 and young Karol had to work in a quarry (1940-1944) and then in the Solvay chemical factory to earn his living and to avoid being deported to Germany.
In 1942, aware of his call to the priesthood, he began courses in the clandestine seminary of Cracow, run by Cardinal Adam Stefan Sapieha, archbishop of Cracow. At the same time, Karol Wojtyla was one of the pioneers of the “Rhapsodic Theatre,” also clandestine.
After the Second World War, he continued his studies in the major seminary of Cracow, once it had re-opened, and in the faculty of theology of the Jagiellonian University, until his priestly ordination in Cracow on November 1, 1946.
Soon after, Cardinal Sapieha sent him to Rome where he worked under the guidance of the French Dominican, Garrigou-Lagrange. He finished his doctorate in theology in 1948 with a thesis on the topic of faith in the works of St. John of the Cross.................  ---Ora pro nobis!---

Friday, October 19, 2012

Marks in the Margin: Resistance in Nazi Germany

Marks in the Margin: Resistance in Nazi Germany
Excerpt:
*We learned too late that it is not the thought but readiness to take responsibility that is the mainspring of action.* Dietrich Bonhoeffer. 

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Homeless man helps save baby born at truck stop | The Sideshow - Yahoo! News

Homeless man helps save baby born at truck stop | The Sideshow - Yahoo! News
xcerpt:
...homeless man hitchhiking at a truck stop near Oklahoma City turned out to be an angel for a young pregnant woman.
Keaton Mason and her fiance were heading to a hospital because Mason was labor. They didn't make it, and Mason ended up giving birth in their white Honda at a truck stop along Interstate 40, News9.com reports.
Mason's baby girl was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck.
"The lady was screaming, 'My baby, my baby's blue. … She's not breathing,'" said Jennifer Morris who was at the truck stop and called 911.
Then Gary Wilson appeared.
"Her angel was there," paramedic Sandra Lesperance later said...

"El feren els àngels": ‘The Angels did It’
On February 24, 1409 the priest Father Jofré was going to the cathedral to deliver a sermon during Lent when he witnessed the lynching of a mentally ill man on a Valencian street near Santa Catalina Valencia (now Martin Mengod, formerly known as Silver). In response, he founded a hospice for the mentally ill.
On April 21, 1885 Pope Leo XIII granted a Papal Bull naming the Virgin of the Forsaken patroness of Valencia.
For many centuries those faithful to the Virgin have helped children, the elderly, the blind, and the mentally ill.  - Source
It is lovely and consoling to know that Our Lady cares so much for her children, no matter how forsaken, misshapen, mentally ill, abandoned, rejected, aborted or not, that she would never, ever turn her back on us.
... Vogue model Christy Turlington Burns and a host of female celebrities are encouraging mothers across the nation to ignore their children as part of “No Mother’s Day,” a sign of their support for reducing maternal mortality by supporting family planning and global access to abortion...
How insane is that?
Our Lady of the forsaken and mentally ill, pray for us, now and at the hour of our death!  Pray for the most abandoned...
Though father and mother forsake me,
the Lord will receive me.
- Ps. 27
After His resurrection, the Lord Jesus was on the earth forty days as it is written “to whom He also presented Himself alive after His suffering by many infallible proofs, being seen by them during forty days and speaking of the things pertaining to the kingdom of God…” (Please Read Acts 1:3-11).
 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

God and PTSD : Committed to Freedom

God and PTSD : Committed to Freedom
Excerpt:
                       "It’s interesting to see how the actions of one person can affect so many other people. The damage caused by one predator/abuser has the potential to completely derail the survivor’s life and future. That survivor will most likely struggle as a partner and a parent. The actions of one abuser [...]....You can’t have me. No matter what you’ve done to me, you can’t have me. You shredded my heart, but I’m taking it back. You exploited my body, but it was never yours in the first place. You manipulated and exploited me, but I’m wising up to those tricks. " ~ShareBy Sallie Culbreth, M.S. Founder
While many people experience faith and God as positive, comforting, and fortifying, others do not. When the very structure of your faith experience is shaken – when you become angry with God, blame God or your faith community, or find that your beliefs are eroding, then your sense of betrayal, abandonment, and broken trust can be felt even more painfully. That translates into magnified PTSD symptoms for many people. This has a deep impact on how you move beyond abuse.
Perhaps you don’t have these faith struggles, but if you do, you may find it extremely confusing to figure out how and IF God fits into your recovery. These are not frivolous issues. For many of us, it goes to the core of our identity, our culture, and our ability to make sense of our lives.
Each person navigates through the crisis of faith in a unique way, but facing these deep questions is vital to your recovery. Listed below are a few of my suggestions for this process:
  • If you’re angry with God and if you have doubts, acknowledge it. God won’t be surprised. [A priest once told me God isn't going to roll over and die just because you get angry at Him.]
  • Use caution when sharing your struggles with highly dogmatic and opinionated people. You don’t need to be pressured into silence or artificial compliance.
  • Seek the wisdom of those who will validate your spiritual struggles and who will honor your honest questions.
  • You may find it helpful to talk to God (or scream or whimper) about your anger, your questions, and your struggles. Then listen.
  • Limit your exposure to faith rituals that feel toxic to you right now.
  • Don’t be afraid to ask the hard questions. You need answers and you need thoughtful wisdom.
  • Keep your heart and mind wide open.
  • Understand that God’s Spirit is here to guide you into truth.
  • Be on a quest as a seeker, not a cynic. If you’ve drawn a line in the sand and have your arms crossed, you’re not going to find spiritual peace. If you’ve sought answers and left footprints in the sand, then you’re on a journey that can help you move forward.
  • Be prepared to experience fear, tremendous loss, and identity crisis as you struggle. Also be prepared to emerge from this as a different person.
  • It is helpful to learn from others who have had similar struggles through books, film, and conversations. When you realize you’re not the first person to wrestle with faith and God, it can be tremendously comforting.
My own spiritual struggles led me to a complete collapse of a very unhealthy soul, and a rebuilding of my spiritual foundation that changed everything for me. I’ve listed a few of my suggestions. Apply what you find useful. Toss what you don’t.
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My Note:  "There is no pit of Hell so deep that He isn't already there...suffering FOR us..."~Betsy Ten Boom in Ravensbruck.
I found at the Foot of the Cross that the Cross itself goes deep into the caverns of the Earth and its sufferings---into the hearts, minds, souls and lives in eternity...
And...the families affected by the abuse....

Monday, October 15, 2012

It Begins by Opening a Book

It Begins by Opening a Book
Excerpt:
So I went to our “spiritual reading” bookshelf and picked up a book the Ogre bought me a few years ago,  which I’ve never even cracked the cover of. It’s by Kathleen Norris, whose Quotidian Mysteries were invaluable in reconciling me to my vocation to the domestic life...

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Anecdotal Evidence: `Clarity, Heavy Rhythms, Strong Rhymes'

Anecdotal Evidence: `Clarity, Heavy Rhythms, Strong Rhymes'
Excerpt:
..and Chesterton’s “Lepanto” – poems written to be enjoyed outside a coterie of readers, poems that cheer, inspire...

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Delete Yourself

I'm not much on 'labels' as I KNOW that God has created each person as a unique creation with no carbon copies.
[Aren't you glad there's just one of me?  Of course, I could say the same thing...etc.]

However, some have noted since the Catholic 'highlighting' of the word 'disorder' in headlines the DSM-V directly erases the 'word'--as if that really solves anything for people in distress.  Sometimes I wonder whose side the 'healers' are on.  I ran across this at one of the psych forums:

                 Delete Yourself - No Schizoids in DSM-V

by sum47 » Sun May 01, 2011 8:16 pm
Since the proposed DSM-V will no longer have SPD perhaps we should all follow Reynolds and delete ourselves and migrate to other forums. I have wondered if I am misdiagnosed. From what I read about the changes in the DSM-V I am (or will be) Avoidant with a side of Obsessive-Compulsive (since there is no SPD).
http://www.dsm5.org/ProposedRevisions/P ... -Walk.aspx
But, last year a psychiatrist told me I am schizoid and I don't have the money for a second opinion. 
by grnMM » May 17, 2012 
As a green M & M I am appalled!  Now we'll all be accused of being naked chocolate lovers.
by edsel32 date unknown
That's another one that bites the dust- the insurance companies won another round for their huge delete barrel.  It's filled full of all those ailments they won't pay for any more with 'our' money.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Anthems in New Tongues I Hear Saluting Me (Whitman/Dali) | biblioklept

Anthems in New Tongues I Hear Saluting Me (Whitman/Dali) | biblioklept
Excerpt:
Salvador Dalí, The Discovery of America by Christopher Columbus
“Prayer of Columbus” by Walt Whitman
A batter’d, wreck’d old man,
Thrown on this savage shore, far, far from home,
Pent by the sea and dark rebellious brows, twelve dreary months,
Sore, stiff with many toils, sicken’d and nigh to death,
I take my way along the island’s edge,
Venting a heavy heart...

Monday, October 1, 2012

St. Therese of the Child Jesus and of the Holy Face

Feast day of St. Therese of the Child Jesus and of the Holy Face.
                         The 'Little Flower', Doctor of the Church
            (and my patron saint---along with Our Lady of Guadalupe)
                                   Ora pro nobis.

We will spend eternity getting to know and love God and each other.
“Each soul created by God is a great mystery fathomed only through the eyes of the Heart of God’s Love.”       ~ St. Padre Pio   
The Good God has such a good heart that when He sees you weep, He will wipe away your tears and pick you up and love you.   I do not fear to run to my Father, even when I have failed, for I know He will forgive me and love me.  ~St.Therese of Lisieux
                    The first response of God is always love and mercy.
I am just a little child entrusted to the Father.  The privileges of Jesus are only for little ones for He said, “Unless you become as a little child you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.”  In trying to learn to walk, a child often falls down but the Father always gently picks her back up to try again. The Mother washes her child off and clothes her anew with ‘butterfly kisses’ and blesses her child on her way again.   A child knows she has only “empty hands” to give but she can always return love to her Father and her Mother.  God wants not great deeds of us but great love.
   When we close our eyes to sleep in Jesus’ arms, we will be judged by our Love for one another.—St. John of the Cross
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So if you don’t want to ever fear again…give all your prayers and sufferings and love for others and seek no reward for yourself but for them and God will hasten to repay this great love He sees in your heart so like His own! 
            “ In lowering myself so low, so low,….
               He raised me so high, so high.” 
 Our Lady pray for us.
                       Be not afraid
                         He is at your side
                                 Believe in Him
                           Jesus Christ our Lord
                                 In Him alone
                      You will have nothing to fear